Kim Hyun Joong: Sincere Angel

Kim Hyun Joong, living in a world where manipulation and self-serving motives are the norm, continues to maintain his honesty, integrity, and purely loving heart, as demonstrated in his own words. Combing through every interview transcript and video with english subs I could get my hands on, I have come to the conclusion that he loves his work, his heart remains sincere toward his fans, and he puts forth a face of honesty and integrity when he is called upon to share what is inside his mind. Following are my impressions on the collections of interviews and real world interactions from the Angel of the East: Kim Hyun Joong.

Hyun Joong is always smiling and open when being interviewed.

After reading and watching multiple interviews and clips, I have come to several conclusions.  First, Kim Hyun Joong is honest.  I really don’t believe he is capable of a lie or deception.  He is so frank, people are taken by surprise, and usually laugh hard at his bold comments because they are so shocked they don’t know what else to do.  Every interview has a moment like this where Hyun Joong has said something shocking and everyone busts up laughing.  He usually pauses briefly before answering questions which shows he is sincerely considering his answer rather than spouting off something pre-rehearsed.  Sometimes he takes even longer than a moment to think a question over indicating he is giving it some real thought before answering to make sure he is able to communicate what he really thinks.

His body language is always open and inviting.  His voice is always soft and steady.  He refers to himself in the first person saying “I” feel this or do this.  He maintains good eye contact, alertness, and good posture with arms resting comfortably at his sides even if he is holding a microphone.  He does not appear to be nervous in any way with no fidgeting or constantly crossing and uncrossing legs or arms.  He sits quietly and remains alert and engaged with the person giving the interview.  He never gives the tell tale signs of a lie.  If you are unfamiliar with what those are, check it out here:

http://www.realsimple.com/work-life/life-strategies/how-to-tell-someone-lying-00100000061689/index.html

Hyun Joong waits for the next question…

Secondly, Hyun Joong has a sincere and deep love for his fans.  He usually mentions them several times, whether it is thanking them for their love and support, or revealing the special things he has done or wants to do for them.  The handshake fan meetings would be an example of one of those loving gestures.  He mentions this in his interview in Thailand after performing his debut concert there for Summer 2012.  He assured the Thai fans of his deep appreciation and promises to visit them each year if it is within his capability.  Notice he used the word visit.  If he were only interested in performances and success, he would have said he would hold a concert each year or that he would include them in his tour.

How cute are the snacks Hyun Joong prepared for his fans. There’s even a drink in each package. I WANT ONE TOO! ^^

No, Hyun Joong actually wants to visit his fans.  He wants to greet each one individually and shake their hand as a gesture of thankfulness and love.  When he is asked about reasons for this project or that one, he almost always says he is doing it to give back to his fans.  He will mention again how he must work hard and constantly improve himself to earn their love and support.  Now that I know him as a fan, I will love and support him no matter what.  He doesn’t have to work himself to the grave for that.  I appreciate him as a whole artist, but I include Hyun Joong as a human being in that love and support as well.  He has to do nothing but just be himself, and I will love him forever.  I have not even been a participant in any of these fan meetings where he shook hands with the entire crowd.  I only heard about these gestures, and he has my heart for a lifetime.  He is who he is and does what he does.  That is completely enough for me.

“All the while I am very touched by everybody’s love and support towards me, therefore in order to express my heartfelt thankfulness, I have decided to shake hand with every fans who come to the venue.” —Kim Hyun Joong

Hyun Joong patiently answers questions at the premier of HEAT.

Finally, Kim Hyun Joong truly loves what he is doing.  I did a whole article on this in Kim Hyun Joong:  Vision of an Angel.  He does not do this for the power rush, the money, the success, or the admiration and recognition.  All of those things have come to him because he is passionate about what he is doing.  He has said that music will be with him until he dies.  He loves it and could not live without making music as an expression of his artistic vision.  He is pursuing acting at this time because he loves it only secondly to music.  He enjoys becoming a character and protraying it for the audience so they can experience it with him.  He is truly talented at doing this as seen in the latest still from City Conquest where he is hugging Jung Yumi.  The look on his face is full of emotion, and as I look at it, my heart is breaking open for whatever his character Baek Mir is going through to cause such an expression.  He has accomplished his goal with just a photo.  I can’t wait to watch the drama and experience the entire story.

Please, Hyun Joong, you’re killing me. I am crying while writing this caption! *sniff* *sniff*

Some naysayers might conclude that Hyun Joong is just putting on a show in all of his appearances whether they be concerts, dramas, tours, or live interviews, to further his career. Even to the point of doubting his sincerity and saying he is only maintaining his healthy and positive image to gain fans and attention in the industry. There are some who even make up allegations of romance and claim Hyun Joong is hiding the truth to protect his career. There may be some entertainers who do this. Who adopt an image and are so engrossed in it, they hide the truth to keep the public from changing their minds about them. These types always get caught in their deceptions sooner or later. If Hyun Joong was hiding something, we would have known by now. There is simply no basis for any of these claims, and I feel they are malicious and spread out of jealousy by fans of other stars or even by those who claim to be Hyun Joong’s fans just to have something juicy to talk about.

I think the funniest allegation I came across was that Hyun Joong had plastic surgery on his nose. I could not find anything to substantiate that claim, but the story was that he had an injury playing soccer and had plastic surgery to correct it. Well, my response is so what? I don’t think it was to further his career in any way. If he had an injury that needed correction, it was just that. Honestly, like Kim Hyun Joong needs to have plastic surgery to improve his looks? For real? Get a life, people. He was already beautiful as a baby and young child. He has the same deep, soulful, intelligent eyes. The same naturalness in front of the camera as we can see in his baby pictures. He does not need to change a thing to be the Most Handsome Man in Korea. The award was well deserved, if you can say someone deserves an award for what is God given! LOL!

The other axe grinding through the rumor mill is the idea that somehow Kim Hyun Joong and Hwangbo Hyejeong, better known as simply Hwangbo, are in a secret romance that started on We Got Married and has somehow continued (without any proof whatsoever) behind the scenes these past 4 years. The accusations are flying in the Hwangbo camp that Hyun Joong is hiding her because it would hurt his success and that she is somehow accepting his wish for privacy because she is a good and submissive woman. OMO OMO OMO! Kurechi? Really? Why have we not seen even one photo of the two of them together (unless it is an obviously doctored photoshop job by those who are either jokesters or honestly wishing there would be some proof) or heard nary a word from Hyun Joong?  In one interview, he did elude to a woman with whome he shared a romantic encounter that he felt in his heart was destiny. This was the inspiration for the song Kiss Kiss.  He does not reveal her name, but states it is a Korean woman. I believe it is someone he carried a torch for who is not capable of being with him for whatever reason. (Hard to imagine a woman telling him ‘no,’ I KNOW! But, it could be for any number of reasons.)

Hyung Joong’s latest leading lady Jung Yumi. They look very comfortable together. Does it mean they’re really dating? No, they are professionals.

“At that time, I did not like keeping our relationship a secret. So I would often go out with her for movies and meals.  I’m the kind of person who will put everything I have into a relationship. I also believe in love at first sight. If I like someone, I won’t hide my feelings. I will chase the girl passionately.” —Kim Hyun Joong

Could it be Hwangbo? Very unlikely. The truth is, I would not even know the name Hwangbo if it weren’t for WGM and her association with Kim Hyun Joong. Her career was already becoming historic when they did WGM together. Not that she is not worthy of success. The hard facts in the business are this: If you do not get exposure, you do not succeed. It is harder for an older star to keep themselves in the public eye. It is just a fact. If she were in fact in a relationship with Kim Hyun Joong, it would be to her advantage and impossible to hide. His popularity and visibility are too much. Really? Would she never be in his car when he travels to and from his engagements? Would she never have talked to him on the phone and someone overheard? Honestly, I would break up with him in a heartbeat if he was my man and either he was hiding me to advance his career, or our relationship would truly destroy it if it was found out. If she really loves him, she’d either be around him or break it off if their association would be detrimental to him. Which, by the way, I don’t believe it would. His fans would be fine with it as long as he was truly happy with her.

I am a supporter of Kim Hyun Joong. Not just a supporter, but a silent partner, a true friend. I don’t know him like a close friend, of course. I have no interaction with him on a personal level. But, from the public appearances and interviews I have witnessed, I have had a glimpse inside his heart. It is a sincere and true heart. When you love and support someone, you simply believe in them. There is nothing more important to a loved one than trust. Men are especially in need of a woman who gives them this simple type of love. Just support them in their endeavors to achieve success, and believe in their capability. In another interview, Hyun Joong stated that he wrote and sang Marry Me/Marry You for his fans. He just wants us to love and believe in him. I, for one, do truly love and support him.  I will never doubt the sincerity or capabilites of Kim Hyun Joong: Angel of the East.

Marry Me/Marry You

I Promise That Moment I Swear (I swear on this moment)
Please accept my heart
This is a love song for you

Photo Sources:

http://alexandral.livejournal.com/228410.html

http://triplekissindonesia.blogspot.com/2010/03/ss501-baby-pics.html

http://gongjunim.wordpress.com/2009/07/28/flower-boys-during-childhood-part-1-kim-hyun-joong-lee-min-ho

http://ss501cheonsaparadisemexico.blogspot.com/2012/04/pic-de-baby-kim-hyun-joong.html

http://en.korea.com/kimhyunjoong/board/pic-media-photos-kim-hyun-joong-interview-with-dailynews-thailand-add-trans/

http://en.korea.com/kimhyunjoong/board/pic-kim-hyun-joong-interview-with-vj-bianca/

http://en.korea.com/blog/enter/k-pop/kim-hyun-joong-gives-snacks-to-his-fans-as-gifts/

Interview Sources:
https://en.korea.com/kimhyunjoong/board/trans-summary-of-kim-hyun-joong-interview-by-choa-no-8/

http://en.korea.com/kimhyunjoong/board/kim-hyun-joong%E2%80%99s-interview-with-idol-com/

http://en.korea.com/kimhyunjoong/board/kim-hyun-joongs-interview-for-creasta-magazine-interview-about-his-music/

http://www.razor.tv/site/servlet/segment/main/entertainment/76968.html video with english subs

http://namjachingukhj.blogspot.com/2012/07/english-translation-kim-hyun-joong.html

Kim Hyun Joong: Angel Soul

I have learned from my Biblical studies that Angels don’t have souls.  This is the common teaching at any rate.  There is much lore about Angels and who they are and what their role is in Human Affairs, but the fact that they are soulless always puzzled me.  I just can’t wrap my head around a being of light that follow’s God’s commands and has no soul.  At any rate, those are the ethereal beings we think of as Angels.  I have known a few human Angels in my lifetime.  Or at least to my mind they are what I think of as Angels.  They are those types who are beautiful to witness because their soul just shines out of them with an aura that stops your heart.  This is what I see when I witness the being that is Kim Hyun Joong.  Of course, he is human.  But, there is this vulnerability and sincerity about him that makes him seem like he comes straight from Heaven.

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When he speaks, his voice is soft and tender.   It makes me feel like I am being gently wrapped in a soft, fluffy, warm feather comforter.  Angel’s wings.  His shyness indicates a humility that I have rarely seen.  He does not seem to really understand the power he has to touch a person so deeply, they are changed forever.  Of course, his physical beauty mesmerizes a person until they are lost.  But, as I have said before, there is good looking, and then there is an Angel.  It is the light of a pure soul that makes them an Angel on earth.  This is Hyun Joong.  A pure soul.  Vulnerable.  Open.  Honest.  Tender.  Kind.  Gentle.  Generous.  A broken heart with love spilling out and making the world a better place.  True Beauty is not just on the outside, as we have all heard.  When we watch Kim Hyun Joong, we finally know what this means.  I am so thankful he decided to share himself with the rest of the world as an artist and celebrity.  As I said earlier, I have met a few of these Angels on Earth.  But, they are truly few and far between.

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His love of the color white amuses me because of this Angel fixation of mine.  He looks so pure and perfect in white.  He glows all the time, but when he wears white it is almost blinding.  We are instinctively drawn to the colors that reflect us the best.  I look terrible in white!  Ha!  I am a winter and wear mostly deep, rich colors.  These flatter my dark Italian skin and hair.  Of course, Hyun Joong looks good in EVERYTHING, but white is definitely his color.  That is surely why it is his favorite, and I believe it reflects his pure soul.

Let’s talk about those eyes.  Deep, dark, and arresting.  I struggle to find another descriptive word, but arresting is what they are.  You are frozen, captured, imprisoned.  They are a window into that pure white soul, and the depth of his spirit pulls you in.  I am unable to breathe sometimes when he gives the camera that intense stare.  And when he flashes those pearly whites?  Oh… like the pearly gates, I must say!  LOL!  And his smile goes all the way into his eyes, full and genuine.  That pure, sweet soul just shines out no matter what he is doing!  I am convinced that God let an Angel be born on earth to prove His love for the world.  How can you not believe in heaven after knowing Kim Hyun Joong?  keke

And so the question has been on my mind for over a week now… Why Hyun Joong?   There are a million reasons and none. I can admire other artists, but I can list the reasons for them… for Hyun Joong, my love just is. No conditions or reasons. It just is.  I try to describe my heart here in this place I have created for him out of the love that has tethered me across space and time to Kim Hyun Joong.  He is from a country I have never visited.  I hope to someday, but I will most likely never meet him as an equal.  I may get to shake his hand at a fan meeting if he comes to the US.  If I’m lucky, I might ask for a short interview for my little blogspot and he may or may not have time.  But, none of this matters.  There is a true and real connection on a spiritual level that I cannot deny.

Even kitty kat can’t take her eyes off Hyun Joong! ^^

His music is happy and fun.  Nothing special, really.  Professional, glamorous, flashy, entertaining.  Honestly, I have been more intrigued by some of the videos I have seen from BigBang!  But, as gorgeous as those boys are, they do not live in my heart.  They do not occupy my thoughts and stir my feelings to the level of love.  

Even a plain white T suits him. Beautiful. Thank you Kathy’s Bench.

And as we anticipate City Conquest, I think on Hyun Joong’s previous dramas.  They have been the typical kdrama fare.  I joke about the kdrama plot formula:  Prince meets plain or ordinary girl, love blossoms, there is always a mean girl rival, a hysterical mother or grandmother against the relationship, and a sweet or lovesick rival for the leading lady.  Set this in modern day, or historic… it’s really all the same.    But, I will watch this same old same old over and over just to see him perform.  Not so with other dramas.  I watch them once, and move on.  Hyun Joong just pulls me in, and I will replay again and again just to see him.  I’m sure it will be the same with City Conquest.  It may not be much of a plot difference from Lee Min Ho’s City Hunter.  But, I will enjoy it more because of Hyun Joong and knowing how hard he worked and how much of his heart and soul went into preparing.  I’m sure the character will take on this Angelic quality even though he is supposed to be rough and tumble.  He’ll just be a tough guy Angel.  Ha!  Can you see it?  It will be the scenes where he is rescuing someone who needs help, or making justice come about that will capture us.  We will see him as a hero.  An Angel on earth carrying out the judgement of Heaven.  I can’t wait, it will be so beautiful and fun.

From this comic still of City Conquest, you can see why Hyun Joong was chosen to portray Baek Mir. The resemblence is uncanny. Thanks Hyunnie for this. Click this image to see the full spread on Hyunnies blog.

His appearances on reality / variety shows are nothing other artists and stars haven’t done.  I have admired the looks of other hallyhu stars to be sure.  I have their pictures on my computer.  But Hyun Joong has his own folder in my pictures and there are at least 6 shots of him compared to 1 shot of anyone else.  And, I have remembered his name with ease.  I have struggled with some of the other Korean names.  There are some I still cannot remember without looking them up.  But Kim Hyun Joong flowed off of my lips as if I had been saying his name all of my life.  It was foreign but beautiful and so sensual I could taste it on my tongue.  Strangeness.  When I first began to notice him, I could not understand why this was so.  I still cannot describe the reasons.  He is just embedded deep in my heart.  A soul to soul connection was made, and nothing can break it or take me away.  I will be here forever.  Captured by the Angel of the East:  Kim Hyun Joong.

Thanks http://reikanorakuen.wordpress.com/2010/11 for this anime boy looking photo.

Kim Hyun Joong: Inspiring Angel

Kim Hyun Joong.  There is no other human being like him, and that is why I love him so.  There has been much talk this week about what it means to be his fan on other blogs.  It is ironic because I have been evaluating myself in my brain for some time now, questioning whether my Hyun Joong affection is healthy.  It has made me really stop to think about what I am doing and why.  Honestly, I was resisting my heart in following KHJ because I was afraid it was unhealthy and immature.  I am a grown woman and have many responsibilities.  I have a full time job.  I have a large family with 9 brothers and sisters who are all having babies and making me an aunt many times over.  I am in love with my niece and nephews and don’t see them nearly enough for my liking!  I am the sole provider for my household… which is me and my two dogs who are my children by default!  LOL!

Some of these pics are about me… so, if you want to see KHJ… you’ll have to read on.  If you are interested, click on the first pic to bring them up in a larger form.  Then you can stop the slideshow and browse at your own pace:

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And so, I was truly concerned about spending so much time following a kpop star from a country across the globe.  It seemed a bit silly and embarassing, and I have to admit I don’t share it much with my friends or family because they really would not understand.  They know I listen to Korean music and watch dramas.  They know I have a dream of becoming a TESOL and going to Korea someday.  They think these things are interesting and healthy as I have actually set some goals for my life.  They do not know the extent to which I spend my time reading about his activities and devouring his interviews to absorb that intangible thing that is the essence of Hyun Joong.  I cannot get enough, and I have decided it is not a bad thing.  I follow him for some very compelling reasons, and he has inspired me to change my life.  I now have a focus, a purpose, and I am happy for the first time in many years.

Hard work surely does pay off Hyun Joong!

Top ten things I learned from Kim Hyun Joong:

1.  Working hard is not good enough.  Work your HARDEST to achieve perfection.

2.  Play while you work.  Laugh.  Cut up.  Make light of the stress.

3.  Love what you do.  If you don’t, change it.

4.  Set goals and focus on the steps it takes to achieve them.  Evaluate each choice and weigh against your goal.  Does this choice further my goal?  If not, make the choice that does.

5.  You  are never too busy to take care of yourself.  Eat well.  Exercise.  Always wear BB cream when you go out!  LOL!

Success is about more than money as HJ demonstrates with his sincere heart for his fans and charitable actions / donations for people who are in real need.

6.  Sincerity is the key to Success.  If you are PASSIONATE about what you are doing, your success will seem effortless.

7.  Just be YOURSELF.  Life is too short to worry about what others think.  It is your life.  Live it with all your heart.

8.  Get outside of yourself and see what is around you in your world.  Reach out to others and show that you REALLY care.  Give generously from the blessings you have recieved.

Hyun Joong distributing coal.

HJ at Marathon for Childhood Cancer

9.  CONFIDENCE will propel you to Success.  Temper this with HUMILITY.  Never think too highly of your abilities.  Work hard to improve yourself and accept praise with sincere thankfulness and grace.

10.  At the end of the day, it’s all about LOVE.  Life is nothing without the love you give and receive from others.  Whatever relationships you are in, VALUE and NURTURE them with all your strength.  Always speak your heart.  How will those you love know what is in it if you don’t tell them? Love without fear or prejudice.  Everyone deserves the same warmth you provide for those with whom you are close.  Give your heart without prejudice to everyone you have the privilege of meeting.

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These are the values he lives by.  I know this because I have seen the evidence in his activities and heard the sincerity in his words.  I am not a follower who attends every fan meeting or appearance.  I live too far away for that!  I do attend these events online when I read about them on blogs or in articles or interviews.  I do spend a good portion of my day on this.  I consider it INSPIRATIONAL research!  Getting to know Hyun Joong as a person is what has changed my life.  Watching reality shows gave insight into his personality, but it was following his activities and reading his interviews that made me realize the depth and wisdom this young man posesses.  He has values, ethics and goals.  He does what he thinks is right and does not follow others unless he admires them for the hard work and beautiful artistry they display.  He’s just a phenomenal guy.  I wish I could meet a man like him who is my age.  I’d be a bit intimidated for sure, but I’d want someone in my life who inspired me this much and could encourage me every day to work hard and reach my goals.

How  these lessons have inspired me to change my daily life:

1.  First and foremost, I am taking better care of myself.  I realize I will not be able to fulfill my goals or live the life I want to live without good health.  I have lost 15 lbs in the last month because I was inspired by how hard he worked to get his body in shape for his City Conquest project.   I was worried he had gone too far, but I was inspired anyway.  If Hyun Joong can work on his health and appearance with his crazy busy schedule, I have NO EXCUSES!   😀  I am eating well, and getting enough sleep.  Being active is something I’ve struggled with all my life as I am naturally sedentary.  But, watching Hyun Joong running from here to there with the ability to smile in all situations inspires me to GET MOVING!  Not to mention his music just makes me shake it shake it! (right now he’s singing to me to MOVE that body, girl Let’s Party on my headphones!  Ha!)  He just energizes me with his hyperactivity and models for me what it is to truly LIVE.

My first dosirak.

2.  I have found something I am passionate about and have set goals to turn it into a career.  I am a teacher by design.  I learned this when attending Bible College and learning about spiritual gifts.  I am also a creator/artist.  I have BA in Elementary Education with minors in Vocal Music, English Literature, and Bible.  I have thus far used absolutely NONE of that in my professional career.  I am an insurance specialist at a hospital.  I have worked in the Emergency room, on the Obstetrics (Birth Center) Floor, and for a Pediatrition and a Radiology Company.  I sort of fell into medicine as a career by chance when I was sent as a receptionist by a Temp Agency.  It has been almost 20 years.  Frankly, I am bored out of my gourd and know in my soul I am not doing what I was meant to.   Following Hyun Joong’s career and becoming fascinated with all things Korean has inspired me to follow a dream.

I want to teach English to Speaker’s of other Languages.  Particulary Asian Languages.  As a teacher, I cringe when I hear Asians with poor English Pronunciation.  I know how intelligent these people are.  But, there is a stigma associated here in the US with heavy Asian accents.  People are dismissive of them and treat them as if they are not as intelligent.  It makes my blood steam because I know better.  A lot of this is because of the reserved nature of Asians as instilled by them in their culture.  Americans are assertive and self-centered by nature because of their culture.  It’s just a natural human reaction for an assertive person to dismiss a reserved person as less intelligent when they are having difficulty understanding them.

I know the traditional TESOL roles over there and how mostly fresh out of college adveturers take those positions.  I cannot speak for those young teachers or all the TESOL’s that go.  I can only speak for myself.  I want to make it a career, not just an adventure to tell my nieces and nephews about when I get old.  I want to get a Master’s in TESOL and do a research project for my Master’s Thesis with Asian speakers.  I want to develop a program that truly helps them and corrects their pronunciation difficulties.  How did Kim Hyun Joong inspire this?  Well, I truly believe that as a celebrity, he is an ambassador for S. Korea.  He is reaching people in countries all over the world and influencing their view of S. Koreans in general.  If he is ever to visit English speaking countries, he should be able to present himself with poise and confidence and be easily understood.  In fact, English speakers would know his dedication by his level of skill in speaking and pronouncing the language.  I don’t know if this is something he will ever do, but he has said he wants to be a global celebrity.  Hyun Joong inspired me.  I now have a heart for all Asians, Koreans especially for obvious reasons, who are learning English to further their careers and goals.  They should be able to learn the language in a way that makes them confident and gains the respect of others.  I want to dedicate myself to that outcome.

And to my readers who are not English speakers, but not Asian, I believe you all deserve the same dedication.  I am only one person, though and have a passion for Asians, especially Koreans.  Why?  Well, I have been a follower of Asian culture for some time before I met KHJ and became engrossed in Korean.  I have just identified most with Korean culture and philosophies and of course the people.  KHJ influenced that, but it is not him alone.

3.  Lastly, I feel so much more ALIVE because of my love for Hyun Joong.  Whyis this?  Because he is so ALIVE and I can be inspired to live out loud!  He may be reserved, quiet, shy, but there is no question he lives his life out loud!  😀  I won’t lie to my readers or to myself.  I started following him because he was so physically appealing it was breathtaking.  But, it was his Angelic Soul that made me fall in love and dedicate my time and energy.  Watching him, being energized by him, learning from him, and implementing those lessons into my own life for health, happiness, love and success are helping me create the life I want to live.

And so, I cannot believe there is any harm in these things.  I do hope others will be inspired as well and make their life their own with the Angel of the East:  Kim Hyun Joong.

Kim Hyun Joong: Angel in Hiding

Oh… *sigh* no news today.  Just been browsing THOUSANDS of photos and finding my faves.  Here is a gallery for you to browse and enjoy.  I choose shots that I find particularly beautiful or that touch my heart or give me a visceral reaction!  keke  Enjoy Angelic Beauty as the pics play:

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OH!  ottokeyo!  What to do?  I am going crazy with no new photos or news on my Angel!  He is busy with filming and no pics have been posted or released for City Conquest in a week!  WAAAA! TT

OK… done having panic attack.  Seriously, we know he will be working hard to do his best performance, and I am dying to see him in this grown up and serious role.  I have heard the script has some funny scenes and I’m sure we will see Hyun Joong’s silliness as well.  He makes me laugh till I cry!  I am worrying about where I will find to watch the series here in US.  I am hoping crunchyroll or dramabeans carries it.  I will google it until I find it, just like I have done with his other tv appearances and shows.  Netflix is not that up on Kim Hyun Joong although they do carry BOF and PK.  They seem to be a couple years behind, though.  I will die if I can’t watch it IMMEDIATELY when it comes out.  Of course, I have to wait for the caring folks who translate for english subs.  I really love those people.  Someday I will be fluent in Korean and will be able to help with that.  I will post a link to City Conquest wherever I find it when it finally comes out.  For now go here to read a blip about Angel Joong in City Conquest:

http://www.allkpop.com/2012/08/kim-hyun-joong-wraps-up-overseas-activities-and-focuses-on-city-conquest

http://ph.omg.yahoo.com/news/kim-hyun-joong-to-focus-on-city-conquest-071100183.html

So, I think we’ve all heard the news Hyun Joong came out as South Korea’s Most Handsome #1.  Are we surprised?  Hardly.  As we his adoring fans know, his beauty is not only outward.  His heart is so big and beautiful it shines through his eyes, face and smile.  When you see pictures of him, his aura is arresting.  I can only imagine seeing him in person.  I am SO jealous of those of you who have had the chance to do so.  And those who got to go to the handshake events!  OH!  I would hate you, but I can’t.    Being a fan of Hyun Joong’s keeps my envy in check.  I can just see his gentle eyes and hear his soft voice saying not to be upset with each other, or we’ll make him sniffle and tell us how helpless he feels when we are squabbling!  LOL!  That’s why he’s #1 Most Handsome.  His lovely soul!

Just in case you haven’t read about the Walking Sculpture Hyun Joong:

http://keksprinzessin.wordpress.com/2012/08/16/news-most-handsome-south-korean-men-rankingwalking-sculpture-kim-hyun-joong-tops-the-list/

And one last look at the Angel of the East:  Kim Hyun Joong:

Walking Sculpture? Here he is a work of art. Exquisite like a Michaelangelo.

Kim Hyun Joong: Married to an Angel

My daily inpsiration is Kim Hyun Joong.  I follow him for more than just the entertainment he provides.  He has made me evaluate my life, my goals, and modify my daily activities.  I am in love with my Angel Hyun Joong and I am in love with the fans I have met in the Alien world.  This dedication has inspired me to begin writing about my own experience with the man that is Kim Hyun Joong.   LazerKim shared in her blog today about this daily need to be with Kim Hyun Joong.  It was in keeping with some thoughts that have been brewing in my mind for some time.  I am sometimes afraid my addiction to my Angel may be unhealthy.  I am not in a relationship, nor do I have children.  I am single and carefree in that regard.  I do sometimes wonder if I would be just as crazy for him if I weren’t.  It seems LazerKim has readers from all walks of life that are just as much in love with him and follow him as obsessively as I do.  I had to stop and wonder why?  Why, once the Angel of the East is in your heart, are you unable to walk away?

Hyun Joong reaches out to his fans and arrests their hearts.

For me, it all started with Boys over Flowers.  I actually watched it twice through on netflix.  It was my first Korean Drama.  I watched it the second time because of Kim Hyun Joong.  I would even skip episodes he didn’t have much screentime and rewatch my favorites with his scenes.  I googled his name and read everything I could get my hands on.  I learned about Playful Kiss and watched it streaming online.  I wasn’t as crazy about that drama, but watched every episode anyway because Kim Hyun Joong was in it.  At that time, I didn’t know it, but it was like a courtship.  I watched the reality show We got Married with his staged marriage to Hwangbo.  I really started falling for him then.  I was able to see his real personality in those episodes.  I think it was the sweet song he wrote for her Falling Slowly that really grabbed my heart.  I actually cried.

I was Falling Slowly for Hyun Joong

He was so hilarious in We got Married.  I laughed until my sides hurt and tears streamed down my face.  He was so playful and sweet.  The show ribbed him alot about being young and acting like a child.  I was enthralled precisely because he was this way.  He simply lived with all his passion and joy.  It was refreshing, and it made me see myself in a new way.  I just wanted to live my life the way he did.  Simply with passion and joy.  He was so ALIVE.  It just made me begin to think about him more and more.

Hyun Joong cutting up with Hwangbo

And so my heart began to be taken.  I was not in control of this crazy situation.  I was thinking to myself, “Seriously, you are too old to be crushing on a pop star.  It’s just a phase.  It will pass.”  I would shake my head vigorously and try to focus on other “more important” things.  All to no avail.  Hyun Joong was still on my mind.  I would scour the internet for news of him daily.  By this time, he had just started his Japanese tour for Kiss Kiss and Lucky Guy.  I dowloaded all the music I could find with his name attached.  Whether it was each new release in Japan or his old songs with SS501.  As I was listening, I began to repeat the words and sing along.  I had no idea what I was saying, but I was having a great time.  I would dance around looking silly in my apartment and just smile until my face hurt.  Why?  He just made me feel good.  Period.

Now, if that doesn’t make you feel good… Thank you Kathy’s Bench for these limited edition Breakdown photos

And so it was.  I was in love with Kim Hyun Joong.  I couldn’t help it.  He just charmed and smiled his way into my heart.  Every day, I read more things that made me continue falling.  When I read about his fan meetings in June, July and August 2012 and the handshake events, I was lost in love.  There was no other but Hyun Joong.  His passion for his fans touched me personally.  I felt connected with him like I somehow knew him personally.  It’s insane, because I don’t.  Not like I know my family.  Not like I know my friends.  It was while reading his letters to his fans on Hyun-Joong.com that I realized why I felt this strong connection.

Hyun Joong’s message to his fans after reading his Birthday messages June 6, 2012.

I was frustrated at first because I can’t read Hangul.  I found them in English and read every one.  My heart was soft and warm and I felt like he was having a conversation with me.  I realized then.  He really is like a personal friend because he is so warm and giving to his fans.  Not only to his fans, but to everyone in his world.  He named his dogs Art and Matic after his dance company.  He laughs and cuts up with his costars on the set of City Conquest.  Wherever Hyun Joong is, people are happy and smiling.  It is his warmth that draws us in and his warmth that gives us that special bond.

Ahhh, Hyun Joong, we “heart” you too!
Thanks mitzi at http://kdramasummerviewingchallenge.wordpress.com/2012/05/13/adventures-in-korea-town/#comment-103
for this actual photo of a photo poster in S. Korea. Cute stunt with the Oh Ha Ni pic in his heart shaped hands!

So, my relationship with KHJ has progressed.  I realized today while reading comments from LazerKim’s readers that it is like a marriage to be a fan of Kim Hyun Joong.  We notice him.  (Love at first sight?)  We get curious about him.  (Courtship)  We fall for him… hard.  (Engagement)  We become fiercely committed to him.  (I do!)  And we continue to stay at his side.  (Married!  There’s no going back!)

I have a song from my past that I started listening to again because it was the exact words my heart felt for Hyun Joong.  It’s called “From this Moment on”  by Shania Twain.  The lyrics are as follows:

(I do swear that I’ll always be there.
I’d give anything and everything and I will always care.
Through weakness and strength, happiness and sorrow,
For better or worse, I will love you with
Every beat of my heart.)
From this moment life has begun
From this moment you are the one
Right beside you is where I belong
From this moment on

From this moment I have been blessed
I live only for your happiness
And for your love I’d give my last breath
From this moment on

I give my hand to you with all my heart
Can’t wait to live my life with you, can’t wait to start
You and I will never be apart
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn’t give
From this moment on

You’re the reason I believe in love
And you’re the answer to my prayers from up above
All we need is just the two of us
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
From this moment
I will love you as long as I live
From this moment on

[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/s/shania_twain/from_this_moment.html ]

Life Together with Hyun Joong

I believe the words of that song are what Hyun Joong feels for his fans as well.   He demonstrates his deep love for us with his actions and his words.  And so we are doing life together with Hyun Joong.  Everyday he comes with us to work, school, play, appointments, shopping, exercising, whatever we are doing he is in on our computer, t.v., media player.  But most importantly, he is in our hearts.  We carry him there for always.  Angel of the East:  Kim Hyun Joong.