I have learned from my Biblical studies that Angels don’t have souls. This is the common teaching at any rate. There is much lore about Angels and who they are and what their role is in Human Affairs, but the fact that they are soulless always puzzled me. I just can’t wrap my head around a being of light that follow’s God’s commands and has no soul. At any rate, those are the ethereal beings we think of as Angels. I have known a few human Angels in my lifetime. Or at least to my mind they are what I think of as Angels. They are those types who are beautiful to witness because their soul just shines out of them with an aura that stops your heart. This is what I see when I witness the being that is Kim Hyun Joong. Of course, he is human. But, there is this vulnerability and sincerity about him that makes him seem like he comes straight from Heaven.
When he speaks, his voice is soft and tender. It makes me feel like I am being gently wrapped in a soft, fluffy, warm feather comforter. Angel’s wings. His shyness indicates a humility that I have rarely seen. He does not seem to really understand the power he has to touch a person so deeply, they are changed forever. Of course, his physical beauty mesmerizes a person until they are lost. But, as I have said before, there is good looking, and then there is an Angel. It is the light of a pure soul that makes them an Angel on earth. This is Hyun Joong. A pure soul. Vulnerable. Open. Honest. Tender. Kind. Gentle. Generous. A broken heart with love spilling out and making the world a better place. True Beauty is not just on the outside, as we have all heard. When we watch Kim Hyun Joong, we finally know what this means. I am so thankful he decided to share himself with the rest of the world as an artist and celebrity. As I said earlier, I have met a few of these Angels on Earth. But, they are truly few and far between.
His love of the color white amuses me because of this Angel fixation of mine. He looks so pure and perfect in white. He glows all the time, but when he wears white it is almost blinding. We are instinctively drawn to the colors that reflect us the best. I look terrible in white! Ha! I am a winter and wear mostly deep, rich colors. These flatter my dark Italian skin and hair. Of course, Hyun Joong looks good in EVERYTHING, but white is definitely his color. That is surely why it is his favorite, and I believe it reflects his pure soul.
Let’s talk about those eyes. Deep, dark, and arresting. I struggle to find another descriptive word, but arresting is what they are. You are frozen, captured, imprisoned. They are a window into that pure white soul, and the depth of his spirit pulls you in. I am unable to breathe sometimes when he gives the camera that intense stare. And when he flashes those pearly whites? Oh… like the pearly gates, I must say! LOL! And his smile goes all the way into his eyes, full and genuine. That pure, sweet soul just shines out no matter what he is doing! I am convinced that God let an Angel be born on earth to prove His love for the world. How can you not believe in heaven after knowing Kim Hyun Joong? keke
And so the question has been on my mind for over a week now… Why Hyun Joong? There are a million reasons and none. I can admire other artists, but I can list the reasons for them… for Hyun Joong, my love just is. No conditions or reasons. It just is. I try to describe my heart here in this place I have created for him out of the love that has tethered me across space and time to Kim Hyun Joong. He is from a country I have never visited. I hope to someday, but I will most likely never meet him as an equal. I may get to shake his hand at a fan meeting if he comes to the US. If I’m lucky, I might ask for a short interview for my little blogspot and he may or may not have time. But, none of this matters. There is a true and real connection on a spiritual level that I cannot deny.
His music is happy and fun. Nothing special, really. Professional, glamorous, flashy, entertaining. Honestly, I have been more intrigued by some of the videos I have seen from BigBang! But, as gorgeous as those boys are, they do not live in my heart. They do not occupy my thoughts and stir my feelings to the level of love.
And as we anticipate City Conquest, I think on Hyun Joong’s previous dramas. They have been the typical kdrama fare. I joke about the kdrama plot formula: Prince meets plain or ordinary girl, love blossoms, there is always a mean girl rival, a hysterical mother or grandmother against the relationship, and a sweet or lovesick rival for the leading lady. Set this in modern day, or historic… it’s really all the same. But, I will watch this same old same old over and over just to see him perform. Not so with other dramas. I watch them once, and move on. Hyun Joong just pulls me in, and I will replay again and again just to see him. I’m sure it will be the same with City Conquest. It may not be much of a plot difference from Lee Min Ho’s City Hunter. But, I will enjoy it more because of Hyun Joong and knowing how hard he worked and how much of his heart and soul went into preparing. I’m sure the character will take on this Angelic quality even though he is supposed to be rough and tumble. He’ll just be a tough guy Angel. Ha! Can you see it? It will be the scenes where he is rescuing someone who needs help, or making justice come about that will capture us. We will see him as a hero. An Angel on earth carrying out the judgement of Heaven. I can’t wait, it will be so beautiful and fun.
His appearances on reality / variety shows are nothing other artists and stars haven’t done. I have admired the looks of other hallyhu stars to be sure. I have their pictures on my computer. But Hyun Joong has his own folder in my pictures and there are at least 6 shots of him compared to 1 shot of anyone else. And, I have remembered his name with ease. I have struggled with some of the other Korean names. There are some I still cannot remember without looking them up. But Kim Hyun Joong flowed off of my lips as if I had been saying his name all of my life. It was foreign but beautiful and so sensual I could taste it on my tongue. Strangeness. When I first began to notice him, I could not understand why this was so. I still cannot describe the reasons. He is just embedded deep in my heart. A soul to soul connection was made, and nothing can break it or take me away. I will be here forever. Captured by the Angel of the East: Kim Hyun Joong.